i am worried.
mood:
i really need 2 watch the way i eat nowadays. it's getting reckless& worrying.
just today alone,during tea we celebrated tammy's birthday and i ate:
- samosa
- lasagne
- eclair & mini creampuff
- fruit punch
- 2 mini drumsticks
- choc cake
and then there's dinner @ 5.20 dots.
and there's evening tea @ 8.45pm (1 garlic bread + 1 coke light..thank god i was sensible enuff 2 do coke light. i almost wanted tea/some sweet drink).
and altho i'm feeling quiteempty now, i jus drank water BECAUSE i am terrifying myself out wif such an unstable & not nutritious diet.
argh.someone pls shake me.i can't live my life this way.
doing level 2 turnstile today was quite fun.
stupid frankie went 2 do baggage roOm (apart frm his ugly hair, i kinda miss him).
gave him the other hot & rock like garlic bread (cos it turned out to be 2 for $1.30..screw it i shldn't have ate anything @ 8+. i feel guilty now.)
talked to iris on the way home..
seriously i dunno wad i want at this point in this stage of my life either.
sometimes i have forgotten i'm still a student & i like sociology.
i immense myself so much into my work life i feel half of me revolves arnd that...
work is fun.gaining experience & working wif nice pple are fun. before this, i never had known i'll b able 2 smile naturally @ strangers & help them in my best ability.
i mean i'm nt the smiley type & i dun open up easily but now i feel, i can say anything easily. but i still dun smile as much as when i'm @ work tho lOlx.
wad happens once work life is gone & i'm a full time student? will i change again? will i stay the same?
i'm so moulded into many forms. it's kinda true when pple say we won't noe exactly wad we're looking for. we will always change.
when will i be stable again? how i noe right now this is the real me?
my life is getting so fast now that i hadn't got time to think abt it/ stop to rest. it's like ur body is moving ahead of ur legs & 1 day, u may just trip & fall.
and now tt i have stopped to ponder, i dunno if i wanna walk slower & continue running @ tt same pace. becos it's a good feeling running this way.
